Because I did. She became more concerned about money than about me. in the middle of a session where I shares some concerns about money and in particular, mounting expenses associated with my son’s broken wrist, she actually stopped me to ask me “but how will you pay for these sessions?”

It got worse when she called me on the day she thought was our next appointment (which turned out to be incorrect) to cancel because my insurance had rejected her last $60 claim. I told her it was going to happen because of the way my insurance works, just as I told her I had money in my healthcare flexible spending account specifically for this purpose. I would have happily arrived at her office with my check except for her complete insensitivity and coldness in calling to cancel on the DAY OF my appointment. When I explained to her first that our appointment wasn’t that day, she said oh okay, then you can pay me and I’ll see you then.

Only it wasn’t okay. So I reminded her that I told her what would happen and how I would pay but future appointments were no longer necessary. I would mail her payment for the last session. She tried to argue with me, but honestly, I was so angry and hurt and disgusted by this that it killed the trust I needed in order to be open and honest with her. There were other issues, but this was a fat nail in that coffin.

I am at a crossroads now and I am going to look into other options. The short term decision I have come to though is that I have some personal self-improvement work I have to do before I seek more professional help. Sleep, diet, exercise, if I am not working the program there’s no sense in seeing someone to talk about it. I just have to do it.

Wish me luck!